been a long time, shouldnt have left you...

with out a dope beat to step to.

its been a long time since ive posted a blog. life has just been all over the place as of late. got a raise at work. way legit. bought a new flat screen tv for my room, oh so nice. got into an accident on friday... ramiros car is out of commission. that sucks, but aside from it, life has been good to me. i am the happiest i have been in yeaarsss. ramiro and i are doing amazingly well. we're almost at 5 years.... FIVE years. thats ridiculous, but im so proud we've accomplished what we have. we have over come some huge obstacles. we arent perfect but we're def loving more that we ever have. his aunts are asking him about wedding plans... but we arent there yet. we've talked about it and we both agree we arent in any place financially to be jumping into something like that. its good to know we are on the same page.

i start the lvn program in a few months. im scared nervous and excited all in one. i want to get through school start my real career already.

life is good.

def thumbs up in 09.

swine flu.

april 26th

there isnt any internet here... so i am typing up my daily blog on a txt document and when i get home i will post everything up. 

friday night myself and the boys from oc went to the angels game vs the mariners... we lost... but it was a fun time. we hung out in the lot until all the cars were gone and laughed about dumb shit.

i didnt get home til 2am saturday morning and i was getting picked up for the airport at 445. so because i didnt sleep it felt like saturday was just a continuation of friday. the flight was long but not too bad. we arrived in mexico city around 10 and had a 3 hour layover. we hung out in a restaurant there for 3 hours so the boys drank the whole time. we got to aguascalientes quicker than i had anticipated. it took 50 mins. oscars dad picked us up and we went straight to their grandmas house. after dropping of our stuff we immediately went straight to the bullfight. yea i said right, a BULLFIGHT. i didnt know what to expect and really didnt want to go because i hate seeing things happen to animals. we arrived after t had already begun. it was PACKED people sitting standing. the plaza, as they call it, is basically a colosseum like those you see in the movies... steep stairs with seats that you share with the person behind yous feet. we walked around the top and didnt know how we would get to where the rest of ramiros cousins were sitting. we stopped for a moment because the matador was about to kill the bull. it was hard to watch. there are like 4 matadors who dizzy and tire out the bull. a man comes out on a horse that has blinders and padding on and he stabs the bull from above near the heart. then this assistant matedor guy comes and stabs him with these sticks... after everyone does the bitch work, the main matador comes out he does his poses and tricks with the red cape looking thing and then BOOM... he takes a sword and they stab the bull from the top straight through the heart. the bull then gets taunted some more ad then this other guy comes with a dagger and stabs it AGAIN in the heart and hes dead. some times they cut the horns off but then they bring 2 horses in to drag the dead bull away. i almost started crying... i had to watch this happen 4 times, well three actually because one of the bulls died on impact. when they released it, the bull ran toward a matador and instead hit the wall head on and killed itself. i hadnt ate all day and was with out sleep, but had 2 victorias (a beer thats way better than corona or pacifico).... i got buzzed quickly toward the end of the fight i need to pee but had no way of getting to the restroom... i ended up scaling a fence to get passed the crowd. we then went to the feria. that shit was tight. its like mardi gras but 20Xs crazier because hello... theyre mexicans. food here is bomb and super cheap.. beer is never ending smoking a cigarette is as common as breathing here. i almost died though. i think it was from a lack of food and exhaustion. it had been a full day since i had eaten and almost 2 days with no sleep. it was warm and smoke was abundant. i started feeling dizzy and weak and i could open my eyes. they took me to a taco stand so i could sit eat and have a drink of water...bottled of course. after that i was good to go.

the next day i woke up @ noon and took a shower... we went to exchange the empty beer bottles for full ones. yea FULL ones. what you do is you get a 24 pack of bottled beer we drink them all then you go to the store you buy them from... they take you bottles back and give you full ones and you just pay a little difference. its awesome. we had some carnitas and chicharones and ive been drinking pineapple juice galore. we just got word the bullfights and the feria have been put on hold due to this swine flu epidemic shit. so i guess we are going to the beach tomorrow because we have nothing else to do.

its been fun, but some times i get bored because everyone here only speaks spanish and i cant understand not do i speak it. so when ramiro is shitting or showering, like he is now... i hop on my lap top and type or watch a dvd. right now im watching anchorman.

i'll keep you posted on the rest of the journey.

ps. its fucking hot.

april 27th 

today was an interesting day to say the least. like i said previously, they closed down or postponed the feria due to the swine flu... not true, they tried but didnt succeed. we had beers and i had my first michelada (not sure if thats how you spell it) its a beer mixed with maggie (if you asian you should know what that is.. if not its like soysauce) limes, chili powder, worstercher sauce... it sounds gross but is pretty good. well ram and i havent had a chance to go exchange our usd for pesos... so random people have been paying for us... which is pretty dope... well you have to pay 5 pesos to use the restroom. SUCKS since drinking alchy induces peeing. well everyone was out of cash at the time and ram as well as his cousin and his cousins friend had to pee so they went to the side of a building and OFCOURSE the security rolls up. they start grabbing them and threatening to call the cops unless they give them money... i didnt know this because its all happening in spanish... i just see these guys grabbing my boyfriend and trying to take him. i freaked and started crying. turns out all they wanted was money. one guard accompanied rams cousin because he was going to get cash from their gma, luckily he ran into a friend and he spotted him the cash. i had never been so scared. im fucking tired, its 430 am and they want to get up to get menudo... so im gunna hit the sack. 

fucking crazy day.

april 29th part 1 

its weds the 29th and shits getting pretty sketch out here. they completely closed and tore down the "feria" by orders of mexican government. the "swine flu" is freaking me out. im not too worried about contracting the virus, im more worried about not being able to leave. im silently freaking out. i dont want to tell ram anything and everyone else here seems unaffected by it. i know my parents are worrying. my dad and bother have been texting me making sure im keeping safe... as well as jane. i really want to go home. i try to have fun but all i worry about is getting sick and being stuck. i walk around with a scarf tied around my nose and mouth in hopes of not getting sick. its hot as balls out here and we literally have nothing to do because 85% of all business' are shut down to help slow down the spread of the virus. gosh damn it.... 3 days more.

april 29 part 2

i watched cnn today. it was actually in english and it was frightening. the W.H.O press conference was something that freaked me out completely. i admit i had been a little on edge about this whole flu thing but watching cnn today put me over the top. i sat next to ramiro and i fiddled with his fingers because i was nervous and trying not to cry. it got to the point that he turned off the tv because it was making us both feel worse. i think i sat in silence for more than an hour... so many thoughts running through my head and way too many nerves fluttering. my parents and siblings have been txting and my brother has been trying to calm me down with jokes. we werent able to find a new flight out and can only anticipate what immigration has in store for us once we head back. i really want to go home but i doubt we will find an earlier flight. all i can look forward to is my newly painted room and new bed.... that is if my father kept his promise. ramiros cousin julian (some of you may have met him... hes from texas and we brought him to one of erik's house parties) is sick. hes got a fever and feeling really ill. they took him a few minutes ago to the dr so i hope everything is ok with him. im sure hes just sick and he doesnt have the crazy flu. i really hope so..... i love and miss everyone back home. i might just be a baby but it makes me really sad that im here. i get choked up and watery eyed when i think of home... some vaction right? i wore a face mask most of the time i was here. well till tomorrow... bye

may 3rd

im home now. after and awsome going farewell party with carne asada and beer on top of beer we finally headed home. it was an ok flight and i got to watch Marley and Me as the inflight movie. im super glad to be home and flu free. i had a fun and scary time... i met amazing people who although, they didnt speak or understand english we still managed to connect and have a blast. im tired and would write more but fuck that im going to bed.

renovation nation.

my house is going through major renovations... stoked on it, but not so stoked about the dust, heat and lack of ac during all of this. as of today the list of renovations includes:
-new kitchen
-addition of pantry
-enclosed wash room in back
-tear down 3 walls
-replace the laminate floor with wood
-replace carpet with wood
-expand living room
-expand dining room
-add recessed lights to living room/kitchen
-replace moldings with crown molding
-remove "popcorn" ceilings

im sure my parents will add to this list.

FML i dont want to be around for all of this work!

3.

there are only 3 people on my shit list.

and one of them is in a league of their own!

love this shit haha.

fucking lil wayne...... literally.

i can believe he answered this question the way he did:

How cautious are you when it comes to having sex?

"I have to be more cautious now. Let me tell you the trick to that. What you do is stop ramming them hos and make love to that pussy! Make that pussy love you and that rubber ain't going nowhere. That rubber will be right there where you started off with if you make love to that pussy. That's when a nigga fuck up, when you trying to do too much. A nigga like me, I am gonna make the pussy so wet that there's no such thing as popping or slipping off. Only problem I am gonna have is keep slipping it in."

--playboy.com 'the dirty dozen''

and the results are in.

i took my entrance exam for the school i will be attending (hopefully). i was verryyy nervous because the last school i attended was paul mitchell and we didnt have real exams there haha. so it had been about 5 years since the last test i took. i missed 5 out of the 60... not bad at all. weds, april fools day, is when i take the NET (nursing entrance test). im WAY scared of that one. the admissions officer told me that the way i scored on my entrance test shows i should do fine on the NET.... and she reassured me that if i were to fail it, its ok... i cant take it again. ugh. i HATE tests.

i cant believe this is actually happening. im finally being responsible and taking steps toward an adult career. i feel GREAT about this. absolutely phenomenal.

ram goes to san jose/san fran for a few days next week.
im going to want to have a chill sesh with the ladies in that time hahaha.



ps.
i lost 4 pounds!! yay!

iSpend.

this is my new baby :)
many of you may be wondering "why didnt she get the newest model"....

3 reasons: 1. white is SO much cuter than aluminum 2. i customized mine to have the same specs as the new one 3. it was WAY cheaper.

this will be the longest week of my life. i ordered and had her shipped to the boyfriends home because sales tax is cheaper in orange county. ive got to pick up a wireless router and a shell for it because i dont want it getting all dirty lol. i havent been this excited since i ordered my bike... oh gosh... im spending too much money... i need to KICK back.

lights out.

i went to sleep at 1015 pm. thats a record for earliest turn in to date. i didnt even do much yesterday.... well i went to meet with the admissions director and got a bunch of info on the nursing dept and entrance test... as well as the NET which i will be taking on monday. i guess the stress just drained me. mike and jase tried to video chat with me... that would have been an interesting convo if i had been awake for it.

im really bummed that i havent been riding with everyone. instead i chose the responsible route and ran on my elliptical... its responsible because i was in bed relatively early seeing as i have work early in the morn. but yea, im still bummed. i LOVE riding with everyone... it just gets difficult to be social and responsible.

for some reason i have a wraspy voice... i woke up with it. although im not sick. today anthony gets commissioned into the marine corps. SO stoked for him... i'll be missing the ceremony but ill be there to party... BEER PONG ANY ONE?!

goddamn my life is changing fast and i totally love it.

the nerves are getting to me.

im meeting with the admissions dept tomorrow after work-- if you didnt know and havent been reading my blog, ive been attempting to get into nursing programs. i work full time and i DONT know how to NOT work... im 99% sure i'm keeping my job. since im choosing to work and go to school... i cant go to a JC/UC/CSU... because those are essentially full time. im meeting with the ACC admissions tomorrow. i know of a few people who went there for lvn and ma courses. not too bad. its not prestigious or anything, but its not the name im looking for... its the education.

my parents offered to "help" me live if i want to quit my job...
but like i said, i dont know how to not work. i like having my own income and not depending on some one else's money.

im nervous.
im excited.
i cant wait to see how this pans out.

i cant say it enough.

today ive been straight up bitter. from the moment i received a text @ 2 am up until this very second. i woke up at 7am because the office manager txt me letting me know my assistant wasnt coming in today. i was pretty pissed. im not a hard ass or anything when it comes to calling in sick, im the last to be... but mondays are typically busy days and i happen to know she had a hotel party this past weekend... so she wasnt calling in because she was sick, but more or less from a hang over and being tired. normally i wouldnt care, but seeing as this weekend i got SHITFACED and was feeling , sick, sore and tired... and am currently feeling the same... yet im still here. my boss txt her asking if she had a bad hang over or something, her response was "no- i have a black eye, scratches and a cold" wtf... who says that? irresponsible for sure. then as i attempt to work i have one of the tech's breathing down my back... invading my personal space trying to scavenge for cases im assuming because he has nothing better to do. i HATE when people invade my personal space and i feel like theyre just watching over. it pushes my buttons.

i attempted to call the admissions director for the nursing program i was inquiring about. we've been playing phone tag all day. i really need to speak to her because i have to start planning my work schedule, around school... or figure out if i can even manage to work and go to school at the same time. im feeling really stressed.

to top that off, if you didnt know i work in a dental lab, which is predominantly Korean. if you didnt know x's 2... korea is playing japan in the world baseball classic.... so 6 people including my boss took off early to watch the game in person.

so here i am... annoyed that im at work... while virtually everyone in the office is out. fml right now, seriously.

thank God for play by plays.

so yesterday was our Biannual Natty Light Beer Pong Tourny. such a good time.... until i blacked out! hahahahaha. so thank God for chuck being there, sober enough to remember the fall of Vagina Pong LMAO.... so this is how the rest of the right went according to chuck:


EMO Holocaust 1 (12:35:54 PM): Everyone was watching beer pong
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:36:00 PM): I was watching you 2
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:36:11 PM): Actually me and krista k
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:36:22 PM): Trying to take care of you 2
marykatesmyidolx (12:36:23 PM): aww
marykatesmyidolx (12:36:42 PM): debbie told me i tried to take care of nancy and in the process i passed out?
marykatesmyidolx (12:36:43 PM): hahaha
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:37:04 PM): Yep
marykatesmyidolx (12:37:23 PM): lol gg beerpong tourny
marykatesmyidolx (12:37:24 PM): hahah
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:37:42 PM): you were there taking care of her then I came over to make sure you were ok then boom done haha
marykatesmyidolx (12:39:05 PM): lmao aside from crying i'd chaulk last night up as a good night
marykatesmyidolx (12:39:07 PM): hahahaha
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:39:48 PM): Haha forreal everything was amazing and for some reason I was sober hahaha
marykatesmyidolx (12:44:24 PM): HAHAHAHAHA
marykatesmyidolx (12:44:44 PM): everything was amazing and for some reason i cant remember
marykatesmyidolx (12:44:45 PM): LOL
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:46:06 PM): Haha yeah I can explain I'm detail what happened haha
marykatesmyidolx (12:46:16 PM): hahaha
marykatesmyidolx (12:46:20 PM): enlighten me
marykatesmyidolx (12:46:25 PM): i'd like a play by play
marykatesmyidolx (12:46:28 PM): LOL!
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:46:35 PM): Haha
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:47:30 PM): It all happened after me and mike lost haha serious
marykatesmyidolx (12:47:39 PM): hahaha
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:47:40 PM): That's when nancy went down
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:48:08 PM): then i had a team meeting then did whatever
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:48:19 PM): Then I saw more throwing up in a bag
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:48:32 PM): Then I was like whatever
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:48:41 PM): Then all of a sudden saw nancy fall
marykatesmyidolx (12:48:43 PM): LOL!
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:48:58 PM): Everyone going over there
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:49:09 PM): Fef hosing down the lawn
marykatesmyidolx (12:49:16 PM): LMAO
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:49:27 PM): Then let's say 15 min pass by
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:49:53 PM): For some reason you guys moved 10 feet to the left haha not sure how that happened
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:50:01 PM): Same position and errthing
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:50:50 PM): Then there I come to the rescue cuz I didn't even want to watch the rest of the tourney cuz I was still bummed
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:51:06 PM): All I see is nancy gagging herself and you sitting there
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:51:20 PM): I come and sit down and all of a sudden you boom done
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:51:25 PM): So I was like wtf
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:52:09 PM): So I stayed there the rest of the night then all of a sudden you stand up left came back then started crying out of nowhere
marykatesmyidolx (12:52:21 PM): LMAO!!!!!
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:52:32 PM): So I was like oh hell no and started to calm you down
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:52:57 PM): Then you stopped and it was quiet
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:53:30 PM): So maybe 15 min later me and krista just talking nancy rolls over wants to throw up but starts crying too
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:53:36 PM): Uhhhh not sure why haha
marykatesmyidolx (12:53:49 PM): hahahahaa wow
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:54:11 PM): Alright so then you stood up and left again
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:54:22 PM): And came back crying again
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:54:30 PM): And I was still like oh hell no
marykatesmyidolx (12:54:38 PM): LMAOOOOO
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:54:51 PM): So we finally got nancy up to sit down
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:55:17 PM): Then BOOM here come more waterworks talking about relationships
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:55:22 PM): Yeah you heard right
marykatesmyidolx (12:55:47 PM): who talked about relationships? nancy?!
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:56:01 PM): During that I didn't even know where you went
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:56:03 PM): Yeah nancy
marykatesmyidolx (12:56:07 PM): hahaha omg
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:56:49 PM): So after 10 or so mins listening to her rant I go take pics and some vid to cap the night and come back to more ranting
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:57:08 PM): You still nowhere in the picture
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:57:25 PM): Then we finally calmed her down and made her smile
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:57:54 PM): Then for some reason juan comes over and says something and she starts to cry again WTF
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:57:55 PM): Haha$
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:58:16 PM): so I'm like fuck this and helped pack up
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:58:27 PM): Then ms drea finally comes to save the day
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:58:29 PM): Phew
marykatesmyidolx (12:58:30 PM): HAHAHAHAHA
marykatesmyidolx (12:58:32 PM): lmao
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:58:37 PM): Thank god for her
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:58:52 PM): Then that's the end of the party
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:59:00 PM): Then we went to molca
marykatesmyidolx (12:59:02 PM): how did drea know to come????
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:59:09 PM): Idk
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:59:12 PM): David?
marykatesmyidolx (12:59:22 PM): haha prolly
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:59:24 PM): Not sure tbh
marykatesmyidolx (12:59:33 PM): unless i called her?
marykatesmyidolx (12:59:35 PM): hahaha
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:59:36 PM): She came out of nowhere like a superhero forreal
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:59:40 PM): Maybe haha
marykatesmyidolx (12:59:41 PM): LMAO
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:59:51 PM): I was like yes thank you
marykatesmyidolx (12:59:56 PM): well at least nancy and i remained a team
EMO Holocaust 1 (12:59:56 PM): Then she took over
EMO Holocaust 1 (1:00:03 PM): Yep
marykatesmyidolx (1:00:18 PM): we played together... got drunk together.. passed out together... cried together
EMO Holocaust 1 (1:00:20 PM): Ride together pass out together bad boys for life
marykatesmyidolx (1:00:24 PM): hahaha THATS team work

scraping the sky.

"and we'll keep building until we break the sky"

i want a life where im happy with every aspect with in. im attempting to make 2009 my year. becoming more adult and being more responsible is in the agenda. living a healthier lifestyle and being more positive. still in search for the appropriate nursing program. im running a whole lot and yes, riding my bike. i think before i speak and im keeping positive vibes. trying not to fight with my boyfriend, just loving him :)

i would like to build my life up brick by brick, cement slab by sement slab. having a strong foundation to build upon. i want my life to be like a skyscraper-- built by me as well as my friends and family. each floor containing memories and fond imprints of those around me.

i never want to stop building.

my life is....

....so beer pong really isnt my life, but its what i look forward to playing after ive worked and exercise all week.

i havent felt this way in a while.....

this past weekend was SO much fun. i havent had this great of a time in a while.

friday night was kinda sketch. we had planned on going to LA for the Midnight Ridazzz NERD ride. got there late... no shock right? after some frustrating stuff and being posted for a while we FINALLY made it to the big group @ the coliseum. disappointingly our group decided to ride back to our cars... we made a little detour at the nokia center and riding back we came across the big group again so we said FUCK IT and turned around and joined them. SO FUN. after the ride-- instead of our usual innout stop we went to moca. BAD IDEA. some car tried to egg us TWICE.... missed both times.... THEN 30mins later the fuckers were SO BORED that they waited in the drive thru and then tossed cups of water at us... nancy was a casualty... that was the first time our friends saw ramiro mad..... its not a pretty sight lol. told the cop and he kept his eye out. i ordered super fries, no beans, no guac's (im allergic to avocados).... and i barely ate like 1/4 of it... if that.

saturday was SOOOOO much better. got up at 1130.. finally got to the bank and then went to the l&o warehouse.... was drunk by 3 and stayed drunk til like 9pm.... seriously SOOOOOOOO fun. we did have a bad moment having to do with a bike, a pitbull and a fall... but we'll leave it at that. if saturday was a testiment to what the tourny will be like-- I CANT WAIT.

sunday was just sleep...... LOTS of sleep.

pictures coming soon... whenever vince gets around to it lol.

last night.

so last night was.... for the lack of a better word, interesting. had an old friend from the make up world come out to bojangles with some friends. silly manolo put my name on the guest list instead of the name i told him to. so i received a semi frantic call from my friend saying her friend isnt on the list but i am. luckily drea and i had just gotten off the freeway. as fucked up as it sounds... i asked her if i should rush out and we decided FUCK IT...instead we parked-- downed our alchy.... only to be stopped at the door because apparently i dont look like the picture on my ID... the airliner is the only place that has ever questioned me... got in and i guess everything was copacetic because they were in. it was early............ REALLY early when we got there. thankfully erica was there with her friend. it was so empty til like 1130... then it got interesting. spent the night drinking and dancing.... and attempting to push erica into guys so they could dance lol. i told her i'd be single for a night and be her wing man but she was being lame hahahaha. got a print of a picture i didnt really want no offence to noel... it was because i look like a fat cow and id rather not remember myself looking so girthy :-/. i told noel that i didnt want it and i was gunna give him money any way because i knew people would be cheap.... but he insisted... i hope the picture with mama ice came out better hahaha. saw my boo jason which is always a treat. we ended up leaving pretty early, about 1230. went to dennys in baldwin park. our waiter was fucking sketchy. had some very inappropriate conversations hahaha. lets just say a lot of talk about sex, penis size, and exs hahahahahahahaha. so if you dated or hooked up with any of us, ever... just know we talked about your dick size :)

it was honestly a fun time.

and in drea's words "i'll never forget it" hahahahahahahaha.

obscure.

i cant seem to get focused today. ive got cases upon cases coming to my desk.

ive signed off on a few things and im worried that theyve gotten lost within the haze of my brain. ive found myself doing everything except my work. i really cant bring myself to do anything productive. i feel so unmotivated. this is ridiculous.

not only do i feel unmotivated, im extremely irritable.

i seriously want to snap at everyone who asks me stupid questions.

its official. ive lost all patience today.

im annoyed right now.

so im at work, pretending to do an excel spread sheet thats due on friday....
ive always been a procrastinator. i just sent one of the guys in the shipping department to buy me AZ b&w tea because im parched! some girl is trying to make me do her work. fuck that! i dont even want to do my own!

did more research on nursing programs in the oc area as well as la (but la closer to me) and im still unsure about what the best route is. the north oc rop program is actually very good, but it may take me a lot longer than i would like to finish. attending a vocational school would be more expensive, but they are accelerated courses so id be done faster and then there are the jc and cs systems, which are ideal but have the longest waiting lists. can any one recommend anything?


went on another ride last night from brea mall to downtown fullerton and back. on the way there we got pulled over by a cop because we were in the #1 lane, dumb shit seeing as we needed to merge over... took our usual stop at in n out. i debated on if i should eat since i was starving and it had been about 11 hours since my last meal. i had animal style fries well done.... a bum came and was freaking us out so i ate fast which was a BAD idea... 10 mins into out ride back i felt my fries pushing their way back up.... i ended up pulling off to the side and barfing all over a tree, SO ATTRACTIVE. after that i was kind of weak but bolted off bc we needed to catch up with the others. after a weak struggle with an incline going onto birch (total bitch of an incline) i booked it down birch, which was mostly down hill. i finally made it back to brea mall. i felt nauseous from having thrown up. im pretty bummed because that was such an EASYYYY ride. i wasnt hurting or sore... just had a fucked up tummy. just a lesson learned no food during my rides. lmao.


im SO sleepy but i want to ride after work. maybe i'll nap then ride. we'll see.

ps. not only does drea walk to her left... she rides to her left. LOL!

p.s.s. guys are still funny/scummy as fuck. lmao.

p.s.s.s super stoked on the bp tourney!

same ol' song and dance.

im going to school to become an lvn, then rn.
how typical right? filipino becomes nurse... haha.
im really excited and i know its going to be hard work, balancing school and my job... but it will be well worth it in the end.

im super stoked on this decision. i get to expand my mind (FINALLY) and end up in a career that will always keep me busy. i guess im growing up lol.


and an update about the past few days....

weds night i did my first ride... we rode from chucks house in tustin to the spectrum to the district then back to chucks. we thought it was only a 15 mile ride, turns out it was actually 22 miles. im really proud of myself. i'll admit i did fall behind about 3 times through the ride... but taking into consideration this was my first ride and my seat was KILLING my ass and vag'... i pushed through. and i dont think it helped that we stopped a lot for more than 10 mins... matt got a pinch flat and scotts chain snapped... luckily we had darrell the bike master there haha.... i wasnt as sore as i expected to be the next day...

thursday sucked, i had statement day at work... so it was a LONG day. ram and i had drinks and dinner at bjs with drea and david... and i cut oscars hair.

friday was yvette and alex's wedding. got all dolled up... ceremony was funny... so mexican lmao... ram and i were lost the whole time. the reception was dope! open bar for the first hour, so you best believe we took full advantage. every time we went to the bar we walked always with at least 2 drinks... times that by like 10 trips... we were having a GOOOOOD night haha.

saturday we went over to rams aunts house (the mother of the bride) for the gift opening and food. its fun being a part of their family, theyre all so close. i guess thats kind of typical of hispanic families... but i love it.

sunday did disneyland for my dad and brothers bday..... it was a long day. so tired... was over it after the first 4 hours...

now its monday, im feeling a little under the weather... maybe im just exhausted from the last week... possibly riding tonight in chino.


fml... im so tired.

cant teach an old dog new tricks.

i guess the old saying is true in most cases.
it makes me really disappointed in the opposite sex. i mean i may not be the prime example of how a woman should act, but man some guys are just shady through and through.
it bums me out a great deal because the skeezers are friends of mine and sometimes i cant fathom how disappointing they can be.

i mean, i live for scumminess...
i believe in the STAYSCUM mentality, but theres a line between disrespectful and scummy.

its one thing to be having fun, its another to have fun at the expense of someones feelings.

dont get me wrong, im a firm believer that if youre a stupid girl you get played.
but regardless i need to show support for my ladies.
esp. those who are SMART and are getting played for fools.

wise up!



....and i cant believe that lessons havent been learned by other people i know....
like seriously...
stop being a douche bag and maybe things will go your way.
maybe your relationships will work out.
... just a thought. :)


on a brighter note:
my bike came in today. ram and i headed to the manahan house in chino so that darrell could assemble it. took a little while but it was amazing once done. darrell and darwin hooked it up. road around a little so that we could make the proper adjustments. then we headed back up and watched the boys try to ride the unicycle that drea had brought over. AMAZING. the guys failed. i dont know if they conquered it after we left. stoked to have my bike... gunna ride a lot more now.... i need to get a wider seat though, mens seats annihilate the vag'!!! gotta pick up some lights too.



remember folks:
ride safe and dont be a scumbag or else all your relationships will be an EPIC FAIL.

and the hunt continues...

update...

mel just found an awesome condo in downtown hb... i have pics but dont want to put them up in fear that it may jinx us haha. its amazing, fully furnished, utilites included... its beautiful. mel already contacted the owner and we're setting up an apt to check the condo out next week. we would have checked it out this week but her sister is getting married on friday so shes busy busy with all that.

im really excited. i hope this works out. i hope the condo is as beautiful as the photos and i hope that we can be the proud new tenants soon.

beerpong headquarters?

we'll see about that.

lolz.

eesh.

wish me luck!

EDIT.

due to confusion on my last post...

i will be potentially moving to orange county...
NOT las vegas.


i got like 3 or 4 ims and msg's from ppl asking.
HAHA.

moving on up... to the... ORANGE SIDE?!

a few years ago a friend of mine moved out to vegas with her sister and cousin. after a year she had to move back to the oc because she had no one to live with.... my last trip out to vegas while she was there we had briefly discussed living together. it was one of those, "we should move out here together" moments that was kind just a ha ha joke.

in the past year melinda (my friend/ramiros cousin) and i have spoke about moving out more frequent. about 3 weeks ago as we cut each others hair and girl talked we flirted with the idea of moving out again. just discussing if we could, should, can... blah blah. kinda got me stoked.

then this last sunday at mel's sisters bachelorette party we talked about it again and we're becoming more and more serious. i told her that i would want to do it around summer because i want to pay off my last credit card. yesterday she text me asking if i was really serious because she was going to start looking into rentals. im totally down with this plan. i had some down time at work today and i went on craigs list... ive found quite a few posts on 2 bedroom home rentals. all under 1000... i know we'd have to talk to the landlord as well as actually see the home and review the contract but under 1000... to rent a home... split between 2 people... factoring in utilities... i could TOTALLY afford it.... even while paying my last cc off. so is it possible that this dream could become a reality sooner than planned... in this time of economic strife, people are having a hard time paying their mortgage... people are leasing out their homes for extra cash... why not capitalize on that?! its a renters dream right now... if you have the cash lol.


im really serious and really excited about this.
"THUMBS UP" in 09.... so far, going super strong!

jobs, bitches, hook ups and pong.

so if you didnt already know, i have a new title at work. i am the customer service supervisor. pretty gnar title for a 22 year old... but i think i deserve it. ive been working since i was 15.5 and not because i needed to, but because i wanted to. as spoiled as i am/was. i always knew the value of a dollar. i've always had an appetite for material goods and in order to feed that hunger i knew i had to work. my parents satisfied my wants to a certain degree, but its just in my personality to always want more. but my hoarding nature is beside the point. what i was trying to get at is this; at 22, i have a long resume. so finally having an "adult" position makes me feel accomplished.

not to toot my own horn, but i think almost every job ive had, ive received the same compliment from all my managers-- "i cant believe how fast you pick up on things, youre definitely an asset and i know you'll move forward quickly". for the first time, i actually MOVED up. in my past jobs i busted my ass and always ended up parting ways because my bosses usually ended up being pricks, most seemed to have a cock stuck up their anal and stank in their eyes. this time around isnt like that. i've only been at my current job for 7 months... and already look where i am. stoked for sure.

what im not so stoked about is the new girl we hired. she's a good worker in the sense that she does what shes told and i never have to ask her to do the bitch work, she just gets it done. what erks me, however, is her inability to retain simple things. things that ive repeated consistently for the past 2 months. let me rewind and explain her position... she's basically a receptionist except she is never seen by clients.... you see, at my office we dont have a "front desk" because we are a lab so she spends a lot of time on a phone (99% of our clients are based in sacramento and san diego)... so she is to answer phones, call on cases i give to her, type case letters, input cases and photocopy/organize paper work... but for some reason even after 2 months of reminding her to get office names, contact info and note who you spoke to directly, she cant seem to get that to stick. she tries to ask who is speaking, but somewhere in the 7 seconds she asks to when she relays the message to me or the office manger she forgets or doesnt get the right name. like really?! i think 7 out of 10 calls she transfers, she gives us either a made up name to an office or client. seriously, from saying "one moment please" and hitting hold she forgets the name? that or she asks and doesnt confirm what shes hearing is correct. it really annoys me. then when she inputs cases into our system she constantly checks due dates with me. ive explained to her over and over give them 10 business days... if they need it quick, 5 as long as its no more that 2 units. i dont expect YOU to understand what i just said because you havent been trained or even informed of the details of what i do, but she has. i trained her for 2 weeks, i typed, printed up and outlined any and everything she needed to know and yet she STILL doesnt have it down pat. i learned everything i needed to know in 2 weeks then they threw me to the wolves.

i just hate having to repeat myself, especially when im busy.
i wish she could be a fucking robot that i could program. shit would be tight. lol.
only legit part of having her around is i can pass all the easy calls to her and she speaks korean.


on a completely different front...
since i sit behind a computer all day long at work ive been on myspace, facebook and blogger a whole lot.

lurking is fun.
especially when you find unflattering pictures of dumb b's. HAHA.
(whoa totally had deja vu right now)

ive also come to notice that my world is pretty small. my ex from like 5 years ago is from the 626 (duarte to be exact)... first person i had ever met from the area. met and heard about a lot of people through him. flash forward to 3 years ago. we were ok in the friend dept. civil with each other, mostly talked to each other just to vent. but in that communication i was "introduced" to a number of ladies he was friends with, talking to, dating, leading on yatta yatta. and now we dont talk... but oddly enough a large percentage of those girls im seeing more often than not. they are friends of my friends, which is totally weird. they dont know me (i dont think) but i know things about them they probably wished i didnt know. so strange. ive also come to realize that guys i have hooked up with in my past are rising from the dead LMAO. i didnt think id see certain people again or hear from them, but boy i was wrong. its not a bad thing, i guess. it not like i had feelings lingering for any of them. so seeing them or hearing from them now is nothing more than chill. it can be awkward in a sense... but w/e nothing you can do but laugh.


shit.
this post is long as fuck.


i guess i'll close it out with a thank you for everyone that came on on friday for rams surprise bday.

goddam' the prep for that shit was intense. running around, texting like mad.... secrets and more secrets. then day of, running late. having the slowest super bank nazi who was a bitch times 1000 when it came to cashing my check... then the chance of rain. baby jesus really wanted to test me.

all in all beer pong tourny was dope to the max.
got all crunked.
sent out some drunk txt (fml).
and made some amazing memories.

so far my plans of having a "THUMBS UP" 09 is still going strong.

ps.
cant wait for my bike to come!
(see previous post lolz)

queue freddie mercury.

say hello to my new purchase. she doesnt have a name yet... but as soon as she does, you will be the first to know. she is my 49cm windsor clockwork in burgundy. i had a rough time trying to figure out what bike to get. i went back and forth from the dawes sheila and the windsor willow which are both womens road bikes.... and both REALLY pricey (450+)... i was completely willing to spend the cash because i knew it would be hard to find a bike proper enough for my size.... but after last night and process of elimination (standing over both of chucks frames) we determined a 49 shouldnt be too big. im super stoked about this!!! ive already got plans to upgrade tires/rims and such...

and im no fool, i dont ride the bike i have as often as i should, especially long distances... so ramiro and i already agreed once my bike arrives (and his too, whenever that is lol) we will go on rides around the oc often... to condition my vag' to the seat... because, im sure you boys know how much it hurts your taint when you first start riding... unfortunately (or fortunately depending how you look at it) ladies cant develope a callus on our vag'.... hahaha. im actually pretty relieved i cant get a callus there, that would be rather unattractive and unpleasurable! LMAO!

im truly excited about this investment to better living... it gives me something to do and its an activity that all my friends can do with me.

this adds to my "THUMBS UP" plan for 09.

ps...

any one wanna buy me some velocity rims in popsicle purple?!

pleasssssee :)

loose ends.

have you ever done something even though you knew, that it was outright wrong? what am i asking?! of course you have. we all have. what motivates that? what causes a person with strong ethics and pure morals to do something utterly and completely rediculous?

i think its attention.-- no, i know its attention. ive noticed that people start with the most innocent of intent, then gradually it progresses into something beyond their control and thats when they get into trouble.

when you have something amazing, never risk it on a whim...

like the cliche line states "its all fun and games, until someone gets hurt"


theres no such thing as innocent secrets.
none what so ever.

you cant risk everything for "fun and games".

a music ménage à trois..quatre..cinq..six...sept...

for a long time ive been stuck in this musical quicksand of the same bands, the same music, same styles, same albums... over and over. its been this way for a good 2 or 3 years now. i use to be really big on finding new bands, singers and rappers. as of late--- not so much. i had grown complacent with the library my iPod contained, rarely updating, rarely straying away from the same artists. theres nothing more depressing than being in a musical stand still... at least for me.

so i decided to do something about it. i had tons and tons of albums on cd that had not been transferred onto my iTunes... so i did that. glassjaw, taking back sunday, tupac, pharcyde, bear vs shark, blink-182.... although its not "new" music... it was so refreshing to hear familiar sounds of good artists... songs i hadnt heard in a long time, just kind of brought me back.

not only did i do that but i also got some new-er music... a while back i dl'd adele's "19"... that is an AMAZING album, super slick... she deff deserved her grammy last night. after watching the movie "the wackness" i had to get the soundtrack!... come on, some of the best hip hop joints from 1994-ish... if youre a hip hop lover, deff check out the movie and the soundtrack. i got katy perry's "one of the boys"... her voice is better than anticipated, but content was lacking-- thank God i didnt spend money on that album... city and colour which was a nice mellow change of pace.... and confide which im still kind of on the fence about... i also found a group called the wedding which is now fronted by former LetterKills (FAV!) front man, Matthew Shelton.... totally digging that band.

these are my top 5 fave albums this month....

ADELE-19

THE WACKNESS- SOUNDTRACK


THE PHARCYDE- BIZARRERIDE II THE PHACRYDE

TUPAC- ME AGAINST THE WORLD

GLASSJAW- WORSHIP AND TRIBUTE

if you have any music you think i should give a try... let me know!

thumbs up or down on BOJANGLES?

so as you all know last night was the grand opening of Man-o-lo and Steve-o's BOJANGLES at the Airliner. it was an event that was hyped by all, but would it live up to the hype? after having a super stressful week at work trying to transition into my promotion smoothly... i was in dire need of a good time. so after much anticipation the night finally came.

of course it rained... all the ladies looked prim and proper RUNNING to the entrance of the club. for the first time in my life a bouncer question my ID... upon entrance i didnt know what to think. it was small, but filled with so many familiar faces. i was happy to see michelle (mama ice) and jason (jnaut), whom i hadnt seen in ages. it was relatively awkward at first. as it always is when the club just opens and there arent too many people there. we went to explore and ended up on the second floor just in time for BCK's set. there was a good amount of people there to watch them play. the set all in all was good, i just wished the crowd was a little more responsive.

slowly but surely as the night progressed, more and more people showed up. fyjy and hairface warmed up the 1's & 2's and definitely got us all loosened up. by midnight the 2nd floor was packed and my beloved friend DANN started his set, which was a hit. everyone dancing and acting a damn fool... l&o tossing tee's... me getting free drinks (thanks baby jase and bartender lady lol) by 1am i was feeling good and stress free.... i think i only stopped dancing to pee, get a drink, or go out side. i was wildin-out last night.

all my friends were there and everyone was having a good time, everyone. Jase was an AMAZING hype man. never skipping a beat and always getting the crowd involved... but then again thats always how jase rolls!

so aside from being fondled and rubbed up on by strange large black men...
and the rain...

i can honestly say i totally enjoyed myself.

bojangles: thumbs UP.



ps... moca salsa fish tacos... thumbs DOWN.

its the only way to live...

random jibberish.

that is what my desk at work currently looks like. a cluttered mess, much like my head. all i can think about is going home, running on my elliptical, sleeping and finding a bike. i need to center myself and get my work done. UGH!

hopless romantic.

its true. im a hopeless romantic. the older i get, the more i realize i love-love. im not super sappy in the way that i name "the notebook" as one of my favorite movies.... actually ive never even watched it.... but i cant get enough of romantic comedies. i root for love in every movie i watch and i cry when the hero/heroine looses grip of the love they are so desperate to hold on to. i enjoy holding and being held by my boyfriend, breathing in sync with him, feeling the warm touch of his kiss to my forehead. i love our "i love you's", our hand holds and our simple stares. dinners out, kisses infront of sleeping beauty's castle under the fireworks, walks along the beach and drives in the dark.



i watched "a walk to remember" today. ive read the book several times and i own the dvd. i hadn't seen the movie in quite some time and it was on tv today, so i watched it. i was a wreck. i cried like i didnt know what was going to happen next. most people would say they hate the movie.... but i love it. although its not exactly a depiction of real life... it makes me think of what true love really is. a love that can with stand fear and judgement. and of course, me being me, i thought what would happen if i were in that situation.... zang. to love and marry some one you know you would loose in a matter of months. man, thats real love.



*sigh

2009

well i havent been as disciplined as i have been in the past concerning my up to date blog's. its been a few weeks since my last post. so i guess this will be my update on the year's end.

christmas was amazing. 4 days off, yummie food, friends and family. on the 23rd the group went to buffalo wild wings in chino. good food and great fun.

christmas eve was spent with ramiro and my family at my house. played a lot of guitar hero world tour and opened gifts. ramiro gave me a BEAUTIFUL oversized betsey johnson bag, a hellokitty jeweled ring, and a cute hk key chain. i also received a $100 gc to Sephora and an AA hoodie.




christmas day i woke up before 8am to get ready for christmas mass. did that and as soon as i got home had brunch with my parents. i went to rams at 1 to open gifts with his family. his parents got me a cake spinner from william sonoma. i was SO stoked on it. we then went to ma and pa's house (his grandparents) where they ate menudo (i didnt eat, not a fan lol). later in the afternoon the rest of the fam finally showed up. it was really awesome cos rams cousin alexis came from vegas... for all of you who dont know, alexis and i went to catechism and 3-12th grade together. he was one of my closest friends for such a long time and its amazing to me that some one i use to hang out with every day as a child could potentially be family (depending on how long mine and rams relationship lasts lol). we had a family gift exchange there. Eric got me and his gift was soooo legit! he got me a plethora of hk stuff! SUHCUTE! we had a ginger bread house contest which was randomly fun. it was an awesome christmas.

that weekend we headed over to yvettes house which was a super funny, really chill experience. we played kings cup (which is WAY hilarious even when youre sober) and some animal sign game where you clap in a beat and make peoples animal symbol. its hard when you havent been drinking, i can only imagin how hard it eas while drunk. i laughed way too hard!



jumping over to new years eve... i worked during the day and then headed to rams for his annual family nye party. this years theme: Ugly Sweaters. damn, there were some ugly sweaters! it was such a FUN night. i didnt get drunk, but i really enjoyed everyone else and their drunken antics! i spent the night at ramiros and finally made it home at about 10am. took a nap and my dad woke me up @1 for the rosebowl game.. HAD to be up to watch my boyfriend mark sanchez play hahahaha. they won which my dad and i were quite stoked on.


the weekend was probably the best last weekend of the year ive ever had. ramiro and i got a lot of "us" time. pretty dope. friday we went to watch Yes Man, super cheesie but really funny (but what else can you expect from jim carey)... saturday we went to brea and to orange for some shopping action... had dinner then headed to his aunt anna's in irvine for family game night... we played rock band, sang karaoke and just had some good ol' fashion family bonding. then sunday... sunday was great! ramiro and i went to disneyland @ about 4 and it was so crowded that they made us park 2 blocks away and shuttled us by bus! we got there and just walked around ca adventure... we didnt go on any rides we just took a look at everything. ramiro never got the chance to take a look at the new plans for ca adventure so i showed him. we headed over to disneyland because we were hungry but we couldnt quite figure out what we wanted. we visited the castle which hadnt been open for 8 years. it was nice, cute little surprises here and there. we finally decided to eat at the pizza port... it was freezing at that point :-/ we road the finding nemo ride for the first time... pretty cute... then we lined up early for Fantasmic... i felt like a little kid again for sure. luckily we had a pretty dope spot to watch Believe which is the christmas fireworks show.... ramiro hugged me thru the whole thing and i felt all warm inside... made me feel like the first time he said "ï love you" infront of the castle at the end of the fireworks.... it was amazing... then to top it off it snowed! well it was just soap suds but still it was pretty!

such an awesome last couple of weeks for sure!
lets hope its just the start to a perfect 2009!