topsy turvey

as i listen to the leona lewis album for the first time i find myself candidly writing because i had a pretty br00tal night. the funny thing is i was making MYSELF feel bad. i guess when aunt flo misses a visit and then suddenly drops in, she REALLY makes her self feel at home. im always pretty emotional when my monthly comes around, but this month seems more extreme. any and everything is making me upset... so my ever so loving boyfriend (who isnt loving in the traditional sense) sparked one of my biggest emotional outbursts in a long time. he really didnt do anything other than ignore something i said and THAT alone set me into a whirlwind of attitude, then anger, then sadness, then hard core crying. hes got a lot of patience with me... but on the flip side i deff have a lot of patience for him-- hes got a short fuse and a BIG temper. for the most part we are polar opposites in the emotion department... i tend to be affectionate all the time and he is deff not (although he does have his lovey duby moments) and while he is quick to burst out in anger, i let things simmer till they explode. so last night we had a little spiff, but in ramiro's wonderful charming way he said "stop crying already and go to sleep, you know i love you!-- go to bed, but not crying.... MAN I HATE YOUR PERIOD".... and like always, i told him yes and went to bed(but still cried hahaha). oh i love a little dysfunction, dont you? so aside from that ive been really stressed out lately... ive suffered from chronic migraines the past few weeks... it really sucks. then freaking out about my miss of last month... its been quite an eventfull month and a half thats for damn sure.

im emotionally imbalanced.
im totally a train wreck waiting to happen :) lol.