the completion of my mind, my body... my soul.

DISCLAIMER: DONT READ THIS IF YOURE DISGUSTED BY LOVE, SAPPY CLICHES AND LOTS OF NONSENSE ABOUT RAMIRO AND I :-p

love...
...I'VE FINALLY FOUND IT. NOT JUST LOVE, BUT TRUE-- UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. I FEEL IT IN MY HEART, IN THE DEPTH OF MY SOUL, IN EVERY OUNCE OF MY BEING; ITS AMAZING. IVE SEEN MY SHARE OF GUYS IN THE PAST... NONE OF WHICH COULD HOLD MY ATTENTION FOR LONGER THAN A FEW MONTHS. BEING THE EMOTIONAL PERSON THAT I AM... YES, I DID CARE DEEPLY FOR ONE OR TWO OF THEM, MAYBE EVEN THOUGHT I WAS in LOVE. THANKFULLY SOMETHING WITHIN ME TOLD ME THAN THOSE GUYS WERENT the one.

ITS SO FUNNY HOW LIFE WORKS... THE PEOPLE YOU MEET, THE PEOPLE YOU BEFRIEND... WHEN IT COMES TO HONEST MATTERS OF THE HEART, IT SEEMS AS THOUGH LIFE HAS A PLAN AND ALL THOSE YOU KNOW AND COME ACROSS WILL SOMEDAY HOLD A PIECE OF THE PUZZLE THAT IS YOUR LIFE. I CAN SAY THAT IS THE REALITY OF MY HAPPINESS TODAY. MAYBE THINGS DONT HAPPEN THIS WAY FOR EVERYONE... MAYBE IM JUST A UNIQUE CASE, WHAT EVER THE ANSWER MAY BE... ALL I KNOW IS LOOKING BACK ON MY LIFE I CAN SEE EXACTLY HOW IT ALL WAS MEANT TO BE THAT WAY JUST SO LIFE COULD BE AS BEAUTIFUL AS IT IS RIGHT NOW.

THE CITY I LIVE IN... THE NEIGHBORHOOD... THE SCHOOLS I ATTENDED AND THE FRIENDS I MADE THERE... IT ALL CONTRIBUTED TO ME MEETING RAMIRO. AS EMBARRASSING AS IT IS FOR BOTH OF US TO ADMIT, YES, myspace WAS A FACTOR. IT WAS THREE YEARS AND SEVEN MONTHS AGO THAT RAMIRO ACTUALLY SENT ME THAT FIRST MESSAGE (YEA I ACTUALLY HAVE IT SAVED IN MY MYSPACE INBOX, WHAT CAN I SAY IM A FAN OF NOSTALGIA hahahaha). I GOT MESSAGES FROM RANDOM GUYS AND BANDS QUITE FREQUENTLY AND I NEVER BOTHERED TO READ MUCH LESS ANSWER ANY OF THEM, BUT THERE WAS SOMETHING ABOUT THAT MESSAGE THAT MADE ME WANT TO WRITE BACK, MADE ME WANT TO KNOW HIM. FROM THERE ON WAS JUST A FLOOD GATE THAT WAS OPENED UP. I FOUND OUT THAT HE WAS ACTUALLY THE COUSIN OF SOME CHILDHOOD FRIENDS OF MINE AND QUITE A FEW OF HIS RELATIVES LIVED LITERALLY ONE STREET OVER FROM ME. AND TO BE QUITE HONEST THAT WAS THE ONLY REASON I EVEN CONSIDERED GOING OUT WITH HIM THE FIRST TIME... BECAUSE WITH ALL THE WACKOS IN THE WORLD I WOULDNT DARE GO OUT WITH SOME ONE I HAD NEVER MET BEFORE... AT LEAST THIS WAY I WAS FRIENDS WITH HIS COUSINS AND IF HE TURNED OUT TO BE CRAZY I COULD JUST CALL THEM HAHAHAH :)


FROM THE MOMENT WE ACTUALLY SPOKE ON THE PHONE.... THE HOURS WE SPENT JUST TALKING ABOUT EVERYTHING AND NOTHING IT WAS SO CRAZY HOW EASILY HE KEPT MY ATTENTION, WHEN TO BE REAL, AT THAT POINT IN MY LIFE ALL GUYS WERE DISPOSABLE. THE FIRST DATE, THE FIRST KISS, THE FIRST HAND HOLD, THE FIRST HUG.... EVERYTHING WAS FUN AND EXCITING. WE SPENT A LONG TIME FIGURING OUT WHERE WE WERE GOING AND WHAT WE WERE DOING. THERE WAS A LOT OF HEART ACHE, MANY ANGRY WORDS, MANY TEARS... ON BOTH SIDES. AS MUCH AS WE COULDNT BE TOGETHER... WE COULDNT BE APART. WE SPENT MANY MINUTES FIGHTING, BUT TWICE AS MANY MINUTES MAKING UP AND LAUGHING.


WE PASSED THE ROUGH PATCHES AND SLOWLY MADE OUR WAY TO SOMEWHAT SMOOTH SAILING. I AM THANKFUL FOR EVERY FIGHT WE EVER HAD, EVERY MISTAKE THAT WAS MADE AND EVERY MOMENT WE THOUGHT "MAYBE WE SHOULD JUST END IT HERE" BECAUSE ITS THOSE MOMENTS THAT MADE US STRONG. ITS THOSE DAYS THAT HELPED US TO REALIZE THAT WE WERE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER. EVERYDAY WE ARE GROWING TOGETHER AND LEARNING MORE ABOUT ONE ANOTHER... AND FALLING MORE AND MORE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER. OUR RELATIONSHIP IS 3 YEARS STRONG AND EVEN NOW I STILL FEEL BUTTERFLIES WHEN I GO TO SEE HIM, I STILL SMILE WHEN I GET A TXT MSG FROM "PAPA BEAR" AND MY HEART STILL RACES WHEN HE WHISPERS i love you IN MY EAR. I LOVE THIS BOY WITH ALL MY HEART AND I KNOW HE LOVES ME. NO ONE, I MEAN no one CAN TOUCH US. THEY CAN TRY, AND PEOPLE HAVE... THEY DIDNT SUCCEED THEN AND THEY NEVER WILL...

ramiro e gallegos && natalie a garcia

...unstoppable...

ps... i listened to anthony green's solo album Avalon 3 times while writing this... <3