well aint that a bitch?

the last time i posted something on this was may of 2009. i just read it and aint life a bitch. things have changed so much since then.

its been a little over a week since i completely ended my 5 year relationship with ramiro. crazy huh? even crazier... im doing ok. the last time i was single i was 18 i am now 23. whoa, thats a trip! i dont think im "looking" for a relationship right now. i just want to be chill and have fun. why not? i was a loyal girlfriend for 5 years now ive got an opportunity to break free and just be silly and selfish. so BRING IT! ;-) after-all, 2010 is the YEAR OF THE TIGER and i am a fire tiger (86!) so this is MY year and i couldnt be more stoked.

so heres to more time with friends, nights out with my cousins and hang sess' galore!
all about positivity in these parts.
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well aint that a bitch?

the last time i posted something on this was may of 2009. i just read it and aint life a bitch. things have changed so much since then.

its been a little over a week since i completely ended my 5 year relationship with ramiro. crazy huh? even crazier... im doing ok. the last time i was single i was 18 i am now 23. whoa, thats a trip! i dont think im "looking" for a relationship right now. i just want to be chill and have fun. why not? i was a loyal girlfriend for 5 years now ive got an opportunity to break free and just be silly and selfish. so BRING IT! ;-) after-all, 2010 is the YEAR OF THE TIGER and i am a fire tiger (86!) so this is MY year and i couldnt be more stoked.

so heres to more time with friends, nights out with my cousins and hang sess' galore!
all about positivity here.
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been a long time, shouldnt have left you...

with out a dope beat to step to.

its been a long time since ive posted a blog. life has just been all over the place as of late. got a raise at work. way legit. bought a new flat screen tv for my room, oh so nice. got into an accident on friday... ramiros car is out of commission. that sucks, but aside from it, life has been good to me. i am the happiest i have been in yeaarsss. ramiro and i are doing amazingly well. we're almost at 5 years.... FIVE years. thats ridiculous, but im so proud we've accomplished what we have. we have over come some huge obstacles. we arent perfect but we're def loving more that we ever have. his aunts are asking him about wedding plans... but we arent there yet. we've talked about it and we both agree we arent in any place financially to be jumping into something like that. its good to know we are on the same page.

i start the lvn program in a few months. im scared nervous and excited all in one. i want to get through school start my real career already.

life is good.

def thumbs up in 09.

swine flu.

april 26th

there isnt any internet here... so i am typing up my daily blog on a txt document and when i get home i will post everything up. 

friday night myself and the boys from oc went to the angels game vs the mariners... we lost... but it was a fun time. we hung out in the lot until all the cars were gone and laughed about dumb shit.

i didnt get home til 2am saturday morning and i was getting picked up for the airport at 445. so because i didnt sleep it felt like saturday was just a continuation of friday. the flight was long but not too bad. we arrived in mexico city around 10 and had a 3 hour layover. we hung out in a restaurant there for 3 hours so the boys drank the whole time. we got to aguascalientes quicker than i had anticipated. it took 50 mins. oscars dad picked us up and we went straight to their grandmas house. after dropping of our stuff we immediately went straight to the bullfight. yea i said right, a BULLFIGHT. i didnt know what to expect and really didnt want to go because i hate seeing things happen to animals. we arrived after t had already begun. it was PACKED people sitting standing. the plaza, as they call it, is basically a colosseum like those you see in the movies... steep stairs with seats that you share with the person behind yous feet. we walked around the top and didnt know how we would get to where the rest of ramiros cousins were sitting. we stopped for a moment because the matador was about to kill the bull. it was hard to watch. there are like 4 matadors who dizzy and tire out the bull. a man comes out on a horse that has blinders and padding on and he stabs the bull from above near the heart. then this assistant matedor guy comes and stabs him with these sticks... after everyone does the bitch work, the main matador comes out he does his poses and tricks with the red cape looking thing and then BOOM... he takes a sword and they stab the bull from the top straight through the heart. the bull then gets taunted some more ad then this other guy comes with a dagger and stabs it AGAIN in the heart and hes dead. some times they cut the horns off but then they bring 2 horses in to drag the dead bull away. i almost started crying... i had to watch this happen 4 times, well three actually because one of the bulls died on impact. when they released it, the bull ran toward a matador and instead hit the wall head on and killed itself. i hadnt ate all day and was with out sleep, but had 2 victorias (a beer thats way better than corona or pacifico).... i got buzzed quickly toward the end of the fight i need to pee but had no way of getting to the restroom... i ended up scaling a fence to get passed the crowd. we then went to the feria. that shit was tight. its like mardi gras but 20Xs crazier because hello... theyre mexicans. food here is bomb and super cheap.. beer is never ending smoking a cigarette is as common as breathing here. i almost died though. i think it was from a lack of food and exhaustion. it had been a full day since i had eaten and almost 2 days with no sleep. it was warm and smoke was abundant. i started feeling dizzy and weak and i could open my eyes. they took me to a taco stand so i could sit eat and have a drink of water...bottled of course. after that i was good to go.

the next day i woke up @ noon and took a shower... we went to exchange the empty beer bottles for full ones. yea FULL ones. what you do is you get a 24 pack of bottled beer we drink them all then you go to the store you buy them from... they take you bottles back and give you full ones and you just pay a little difference. its awesome. we had some carnitas and chicharones and ive been drinking pineapple juice galore. we just got word the bullfights and the feria have been put on hold due to this swine flu epidemic shit. so i guess we are going to the beach tomorrow because we have nothing else to do.

its been fun, but some times i get bored because everyone here only speaks spanish and i cant understand not do i speak it. so when ramiro is shitting or showering, like he is now... i hop on my lap top and type or watch a dvd. right now im watching anchorman.

i'll keep you posted on the rest of the journey.

ps. its fucking hot.

april 27th 

today was an interesting day to say the least. like i said previously, they closed down or postponed the feria due to the swine flu... not true, they tried but didnt succeed. we had beers and i had my first michelada (not sure if thats how you spell it) its a beer mixed with maggie (if you asian you should know what that is.. if not its like soysauce) limes, chili powder, worstercher sauce... it sounds gross but is pretty good. well ram and i havent had a chance to go exchange our usd for pesos... so random people have been paying for us... which is pretty dope... well you have to pay 5 pesos to use the restroom. SUCKS since drinking alchy induces peeing. well everyone was out of cash at the time and ram as well as his cousin and his cousins friend had to pee so they went to the side of a building and OFCOURSE the security rolls up. they start grabbing them and threatening to call the cops unless they give them money... i didnt know this because its all happening in spanish... i just see these guys grabbing my boyfriend and trying to take him. i freaked and started crying. turns out all they wanted was money. one guard accompanied rams cousin because he was going to get cash from their gma, luckily he ran into a friend and he spotted him the cash. i had never been so scared. im fucking tired, its 430 am and they want to get up to get menudo... so im gunna hit the sack. 

fucking crazy day.

april 29th part 1 

its weds the 29th and shits getting pretty sketch out here. they completely closed and tore down the "feria" by orders of mexican government. the "swine flu" is freaking me out. im not too worried about contracting the virus, im more worried about not being able to leave. im silently freaking out. i dont want to tell ram anything and everyone else here seems unaffected by it. i know my parents are worrying. my dad and bother have been texting me making sure im keeping safe... as well as jane. i really want to go home. i try to have fun but all i worry about is getting sick and being stuck. i walk around with a scarf tied around my nose and mouth in hopes of not getting sick. its hot as balls out here and we literally have nothing to do because 85% of all business' are shut down to help slow down the spread of the virus. gosh damn it.... 3 days more.

april 29 part 2

i watched cnn today. it was actually in english and it was frightening. the W.H.O press conference was something that freaked me out completely. i admit i had been a little on edge about this whole flu thing but watching cnn today put me over the top. i sat next to ramiro and i fiddled with his fingers because i was nervous and trying not to cry. it got to the point that he turned off the tv because it was making us both feel worse. i think i sat in silence for more than an hour... so many thoughts running through my head and way too many nerves fluttering. my parents and siblings have been txting and my brother has been trying to calm me down with jokes. we werent able to find a new flight out and can only anticipate what immigration has in store for us once we head back. i really want to go home but i doubt we will find an earlier flight. all i can look forward to is my newly painted room and new bed.... that is if my father kept his promise. ramiros cousin julian (some of you may have met him... hes from texas and we brought him to one of erik's house parties) is sick. hes got a fever and feeling really ill. they took him a few minutes ago to the dr so i hope everything is ok with him. im sure hes just sick and he doesnt have the crazy flu. i really hope so..... i love and miss everyone back home. i might just be a baby but it makes me really sad that im here. i get choked up and watery eyed when i think of home... some vaction right? i wore a face mask most of the time i was here. well till tomorrow... bye

may 3rd

im home now. after and awsome going farewell party with carne asada and beer on top of beer we finally headed home. it was an ok flight and i got to watch Marley and Me as the inflight movie. im super glad to be home and flu free. i had a fun and scary time... i met amazing people who although, they didnt speak or understand english we still managed to connect and have a blast. im tired and would write more but fuck that im going to bed.

renovation nation.

my house is going through major renovations... stoked on it, but not so stoked about the dust, heat and lack of ac during all of this. as of today the list of renovations includes:
-new kitchen
-addition of pantry
-enclosed wash room in back
-tear down 3 walls
-replace the laminate floor with wood
-replace carpet with wood
-expand living room
-expand dining room
-add recessed lights to living room/kitchen
-replace moldings with crown molding
-remove "popcorn" ceilings

im sure my parents will add to this list.

FML i dont want to be around for all of this work!

3.

there are only 3 people on my shit list.

and one of them is in a league of their own!

love this shit haha.

fucking lil wayne...... literally.

i can believe he answered this question the way he did:

How cautious are you when it comes to having sex?

"I have to be more cautious now. Let me tell you the trick to that. What you do is stop ramming them hos and make love to that pussy! Make that pussy love you and that rubber ain't going nowhere. That rubber will be right there where you started off with if you make love to that pussy. That's when a nigga fuck up, when you trying to do too much. A nigga like me, I am gonna make the pussy so wet that there's no such thing as popping or slipping off. Only problem I am gonna have is keep slipping it in."

--playboy.com 'the dirty dozen''