Friday, November 7, 2008

feliz cumpleanos!






happy birthday to me!!




so yesterday was my birthday and it was a nice simple birthday. im not feeling well so i dont feel like writing much.....


the duece duece isnt treating me so well so far! but my friends have!








part one of my birthday resulted in a custom obey hello kitty cake from drea and nancy:




and here are some of the AMAZING gifts i recieved from my friends...




to be contiuned on sunday!


Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Epic Fail?!


-after the presidential results came in-
Chuck: EPIC FAIL
Natalie: i didnt vote.
Chuck: WTF Get out of here!
Natalie: "i didnt vote because i didnt want my name
going down in the history books as contributing to our countries EPIC FAIL"


so in this year, 2008, we have made history... a black president! who would have thunk it?! prior to our now President Elect Barack Obama running i always said, if we are going to have a black president, i want him the be something like Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. because then we really will have change in this nation. I was relatively impartial during this years presidential elections, thats why i didnt vote. i did want to see mccain as president, but im not disappointed that he lost. with that being said i have mixed emotions when i think of our new President Elect.

i am excited and proud that our country is finally, in sarah palins words, "cool". we have abolished the color barrier on capital hill and thats amazing... but im very worried because Mr. Obama has made many promises to our voters, new and returning. promises that built the platform on which he now stands. i really hope that he will not go back on his words and disappoint all these people who have instilled so much trust in his words.

with much disappointment, proposition 8 is slowly loosing fire and by a slim margin, it appears we have lost this battle. as of 11:21am today, with 95.4% of californias precincts reported... its 52% yes and 48% no. im left with a sinking feeling in my stomach. in this day and age where we can accept a african american president, we can not accept the idea that marriage is for LOVERS, not just heteros? sad.. extremely sad. im most disappointed with los angeles county. 100% of the la county precincts reported and the margin was rediculously narrow. yes 50.4% and no 49.6%. i cant express how truly disappointed i am.


i can only wish that we fight for this cause and continue fighting.


OBAMANATION .... this should be interestion



Saturday, November 1, 2008

restoring marriage? really?!






























proposition 8: an initiative measure on the 2008 CA election ballot titled Eliminates Right of Same-Sex Couples to Marry. if passed, the proposition would "change the California Constitution to eliminate the right of same-sex couples to marry in California." A new section would be added stating "only marriage between a man and a woman is valid or recognized in California.

i know already posted a political blog earlier , but leaving work 2 days ago i noticed our office's lawn adorned a "YES ON PROP 8" sign. i removed if from its upright position and laid it on the grass. driving home from work i was stuck behind a car with several bumper stickers plastered across its tail end. "Yes on Prop 8", "Restore Marriage" and such. i thought to myself how exactly is this proposition going to restore marriage? i understand that they want to "preserve the sanctity of marriage"... because thats what the bible says. i get that... but here's how i see it. you want to preserve marriage? stop the members of the armed forces from marrying simply for money. stop 16 year olds from marrying each other just because they got knocked up. stop people from marrying each other with in the first few months of meeting. how about that? maybe then youd truly be preserving and restoring marriage. maybe then the'd have a lower divorce rate.. ya think?! there are gay and lesbian couples, LIFEpartners... these people have been in a committed, monogamous relationship for years and years, these are the people that DESERVE the right to be married, instead allowing marriage to be a free for all amongst the straight people who take this right so lightly and for granted.

love is an emotion that knows no boundaries. a persons heart loves who they want. and it was GODS hands that made us this way. the church teaches us that we are to love the opposite sex, marry and have children. its is also taught that it is a sin to be homosexual, but it is also a sin to judge another man. i believe those who are gay and lesbian are born this way, it was in Gods plan. hes the all knowing, all seeing, all creator of heaven and earth right? the common argument is God made them straight, but they chose to be gay. why? why would some one knowingly CHOOSE to be put in a situation like this? where their happiness, their equality is voted on by people who will never know what this feels like? i dont know any one that would willingly choose to be "right-less".

prop 8 is so much more than just the legalization of same sex marriage.... its about fundamental rights, equality, justice. the fact that this proposition is even an issue scares me greatly. this is a big deal, voting yes on prop 8 is along the same lines as the segregation of blacks, the ineligibility of women to vote... not allowing a human their fair chance at equality. what if in 4 years, come the next election there were a prop on straight marriages, saying you could only marry your own race or with in your own social class or age group... how would you feel? to be told WHO you have to fall in love with, who you HAVE to marry. you wouldnt like it would you? nah. but sadly that will never be an issue.. in the end... loveless marriages are ok by law, but genuine love thats not substantial enough-- when its same sex.

and please dont feed me bullshit about it being a bad example for the children. i keep hearing people say "but kids are gunna think its ok to marry the same sex and what if they become gay" kids are gay from DAY ONE, if they are. they arent going to learn it in school. if anything i believe it will teach children to be more opened minded to people unlike themselves. it will help those children with 2 moms or 2 dads to not be so confused, to feel normal.
-- which makes me think. the prop 8 supporters run all those ads which state their teaching kids about gay marriage is school and how its confusing them... then they talk about preservation of marriage... but why havent they brought up that in schools they teach about divorced families? wouldnt that be along the same lines.. you know teaching children something that is not in favor of marriage? isnt teaching kids about anything other than a "nuclear" family a contradiction of what their ads message is? and yet, THATS not an issue.

plain and simple, no one can legally stop you from marrying an asshole, drug dealer, child molester, cheater, liar or any one that would make a horrible spouse... theres no deliberation on if you can legally do that... because you LOVE that person and yet we're debating on whether two people who are IN LOVE can marry all because their lifestyle isnt ok according to the bible. ridiculous!


what happened to the separation of church and state?
what happened to equal rights?
what happened to land of the free?


they didnt vote on your marriages, so you shouldnt vote on theirs!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Grand Ol'..... RINO?!



Republican In Name Only


although thats a some what negative term used by conservative Republicans, i will gladly own it.

that being said:

McCain/Palin 08
Prop 1: Oppose
Prop 2: Oppose
Prop 3: Oppose
Prop 4: Oppose
Prop 5: Oppose
Prop 6: Support
Prop 7: Oppose
Prop 8: Oppose
Prop 9: Support
Prop 10: Oppose
Prop 11: Support
Prop 12: Support


but this post is completely usless, why?
because im not voting!


HAHAHAH!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

speaking to my love and my insecurities.



Veda (aka vedera)- Moments Rewound

When I'm lost without a word to say
When I'm not the most intriguing
Will you stay?
When I've called just to hear you say hi
Will you find me too needy and walk away?

And I know these are silly questions to ask you
'Cause you've proven to love me far beyond my faults
And I'll hold on to every conversation if it could be our last
'Cause when you're not breathing
I beg for one more breath with you
When you're silent
I hang on to every word
And there are no regrets with this love

Rewind to any moment you like
Sit back, remember
I will always sit back with you

Oh how cool you wished to be
We were both so nervous
But at peace
And the same time knowning this was right
The time I moved in closely for what you weren't expecting
Think on thisBut don't miss
Don't long for the past
Long for what comes next
Come away with life
Come away with love
With something better


...i totally had a throw back to my paul mitchell days and listened to some old music i was really into while in hair school.... my closest friend in hair school was janelle.... and she use to turn me on to A LOT of cool new music... mostly very indie and low key... veda/vedera what ever name you choose to call them was one of the bands i had gotten into and slowly faded from....

have you ever listened to a song and felt like they were your words... stole right from your thoughts, your mouth? thats how i felt when i heard this song.... i had heard it before, prior to being in the current almost 4yr relationship i am in... (ok no so much PRIOR, but before we invested as many emotions and years).... but now listenting to it, it has a completely different meaning... feeling.
i do 3 things when ive got a lot on my mind: write, listen to music and sing.
i sang this song with my whole heart behind it.
total diva moment, but by myself.
i like when music makes you genuinely feel something.

this was a random blog.
no rhyme or reason.
:)

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

another day, another dollar... and some.

so nancys blog has inspired me to post up a birthday wish list (if you arent sure, my birthday is nov.6th). those who know me, know i have a lot of THINGS... but im not materialistic. i provide for myself and ive never expected anything from any one. if i want something, i hold myself accountable for getting it... if its out of my means, then its not meant for me.

...but with birthdays come gifts (speaking generally). im not expecting to get anything from any one... because the economy has gone to shit and to me personal stability is priority one over buying me a gift... so consider this list something like window shopping... in blog form...


My Birthday Wish List:

hello kitty birthday cake





Minnetonka Tramper Suede Ankle Boot
Size: 6.5/7 $49.95





Hello Kitty Overnight Bag: Nippon print
$48.00
Forever 21 Gift Card

MAC Gift Card

Sephora Gift Card



H & M Gift Card


"A Girl Can Dream" Wish List--
...all the things i wish i were unwrapping...

120 gb iPod Classic- Black
$249

Tiffany & Co. 1873 Lock Bracelet
$275

Return to Tiffany Heart Tag Earrings
$175

Chanel Bodeaux Patent Grand Shopping Tote- Wine
$2,800

Chanel Lambskin Jumbo Flap Bag- Purple
$3,200

Flat Abs
HAHAHAHAHA!

Monday, October 13, 2008

ostritch?! thats not a burger! thats a bird!

my blog title as no relation to what im writing, i just thought that miller commercial they've been running was really funny...


im starting a revovation of myself.
physically & mentally.

ive dyed my hair black.
im allowing it to grow.
ive changed my diet.
and im working out.
(ive lost 3lbs already)

i have a goal to physially be a new me by the new year...
and internally, be a stronger me.
i needed a change, and i hope this ones for the best.
and is lasting.

..we'll see.